Really beautiful, Kristine. I have three sons, but no daughters. When I found out the third was a boy, I wasn't sad, really; I hadn't hoped for one or the other, in all honesty (and how can you hold a new baby in your arms and wish for anything else?) But I did feel something, and I understood it to be a reckoning with the truth that I would not experience having a daughter in this lifetime. Just like I won't climb Everest or skydive, I just won't have that experience. And that's okay. But I do so enjoy these windows into the experience, so thank you.❤️
Thank you for sharing that reflection with me, Maria! Our boys have so much to teach us, too, don't they? I'm sure your life will be no less rich with three of them!
Kristine, after four boys, I now have this sweet two year old girl who wants nothing more than me looking in her face all day long. I think the Lord was gracious to wait for long enough that I could (I hope) walk out this tension. It is the hardest and sweetest thing. Thank you for sharing this tender poem ❤️
I often think of the moment we found out at 20 weeks I was carrying a daughter. I thought I’d be so thrilled, either way, so I couldn’t make sense of the fear that immediately flooded my body. I was at a loss.
It took awhile to unpack that (even still) and the landscape of why has grown even more grim on one side — while my relationship to my girl has grown brighter. It’s been a re-formation and refining… and I’m so beyond grateful for the goodness of that in the midst of pain.
Thank you for sharing this, Kristine. It is a beautiful poem!
Thank you ❤️
Poignant and beautiful, Kristine. Thank you.
Thank you, Elizabeth!
Really beautiful, Kristine. I have three sons, but no daughters. When I found out the third was a boy, I wasn't sad, really; I hadn't hoped for one or the other, in all honesty (and how can you hold a new baby in your arms and wish for anything else?) But I did feel something, and I understood it to be a reckoning with the truth that I would not experience having a daughter in this lifetime. Just like I won't climb Everest or skydive, I just won't have that experience. And that's okay. But I do so enjoy these windows into the experience, so thank you.❤️
Thank you for sharing that reflection with me, Maria! Our boys have so much to teach us, too, don't they? I'm sure your life will be no less rich with three of them!
Kristine, after four boys, I now have this sweet two year old girl who wants nothing more than me looking in her face all day long. I think the Lord was gracious to wait for long enough that I could (I hope) walk out this tension. It is the hardest and sweetest thing. Thank you for sharing this tender poem ❤️
Thank you for reading, Annelise!
I often think of the moment we found out at 20 weeks I was carrying a daughter. I thought I’d be so thrilled, either way, so I couldn’t make sense of the fear that immediately flooded my body. I was at a loss.
It took awhile to unpack that (even still) and the landscape of why has grown even more grim on one side — while my relationship to my girl has grown brighter. It’s been a re-formation and refining… and I’m so beyond grateful for the goodness of that in the midst of pain.
The reading is beautiful (and it's such a beautiful poem).
Thank you! 🥹
Thank you for sharing, Kristine. What a wonderful poem.
Thank you so much, Jody! That means a lot to me! ❤️